Story of a Difficult Conversation text
I had been in the same job for about 20 years, and I was desperately seeking something more. So I was this late bloomer going back to college to finish a degree, and I started finding my love of communication and I wanted to be a professional. And I started with the foundation, which is to create a mission for my life's work, and that was to improve communication and relationships everywhere. The only problem was I had a boss that I perceived to be a bully boss. Needless to say, I was very intimidated, but there was this little voice in my head that said, you have to start where you are and see if you can't work with someone that you find to be difficult. And so I got my chance not too long after that. And what happened was I was scheduled and approved for a day of vacation. The day before that vacation day was up, I opened the door, I said, hey, I'll see you Monday. And he looks up at me and says, "What, we're running "extra lines tomorrow, I need you." And I gasped and I felt his discomfort. Then I immediately said, "Well, that's okay. "Maybe I can go ahead and work." Now secretly, I was hinting and I was hoping that he would say, no, no, no, my fault. But no, he took me right up on it and he said, "Absolutely you can work, I need you." And I walked out and I was a little bit angry, but I'm working on myself. Now, I was in a coaching group at this time. And so I brought this up that evening in my coaching group. And I said, "And here's what happened, "and now I have no other choices." And the coach said, "Oh, you have a lot of choices." And I said, "Well, one choice is I could go back "to work and talk bad about my boss "and everybody would agree with me." And she said, "Yeah, that would give you social proof." I said, "Well, I could call in sick. "That would teach him a lesson." But that doesn't go along with where I'm wanting to go in my mission. And she said, "I think you have another choice, "and that's to address the issue "with your boss in the morning." (exhales sharply) I could fill my heart just pound. It was so scary. But I thought about it. And the next morning, I got up early. I clocked in 30 minutes early and I went right into my boss's office. And I opened the door and I said, "I wanna talk to you within the next 30 minutes. "It needs to be private and I need you to listen." And he said, "Go ahead." And he was multitasking, he was working on things, pulling out file folders. And I said, "No, I need you to pay attention, "and I need you not to yell." And now he rolled his chair back, he took a pause, and he's looking at me. And I said, "You know, I was dishonest yesterday "and I just wanna own that." And he said, "What happened?" And I said, "You know, I told you it was okay "that I come in today, but I need today off. "I have a weekend class at college, "and I need the time to prepare, "and I was scheduled to be off." And he said, well, you should have, and you, and the voice got loud, and I took this breath and I said, "What should I have done, because I'm here to learn." And he backed up and he said, no, no. He said, "I was wrong, but we're just busy, "we're running extra lines." And I said, "Would you be willing, I've already clocked in, "but would you be willing to try to get someone "to take my place and then I'll just clock out "and not take vacation?" And he said, he said, "Well, I would try to do that, "but I'd have to pay someone time and a half." And I said, "Absolutely, are you still willing to do it?" He said, "Well, I'll try, "but I'm not gonna guarantee anything." I walked out to the line, my heart was just beating. I sit down, and I was so excited. And while I was thinking about feeling so good about it, here comes my boss and he says, "I've got someone to come in at 10 o'clock, "and if that's soon enough, I'll take your place, "and you can go now." And I was so excited because I realized that there is power in taking full responsibility for the relationships in your life and the conversations and that old habits can change, and when you do your inner work, a lot of times you see shifts in other people as well.